Stop

Stop

Breathe

Stop

Beat in the box in my chest

Open wide

Fright

Shock

Trepidation (terror)

Over

Under

Within

Loud roar

Inside out

Louder

More

Even more

Louder.

(Louder,)

Exhausted

Of the exercise

Exhausted of knowing too well

The whereabouts

The foundation of that cry

Once always

Now dispersed

Now and then

I shriek

Softly to contain

The resolution to obtain

Calm hands,

No mud on my hands

Outburst

I control not

A knot in my wrists

Eyeballs rolling

Head spinning

My core twisting

Contraction in my limbs

Short breaths

I feel numb in that strength

Powerless in that potency

There is no coming back

My back hurts from restraining the burst

A rupture from my intellect

Emotions erupting like hell on earth

I am transcended

Manichaean sensations

My toes are crisp

My shoulders pulling forward

My sight all red

My heart destroyed

For a moment

An instance of malfunction

I am trying

I am tired

I want to retired

And start breathing again

Oh please

Let it go,

Let it go.

Let me go,

Let me go.

And so I breathe,

And breathe again.

As I love to love,

Love in red,

Red in anger:

Red in jeopardy;

Polarized duality,

Pleonasm of an oxymoron.